Soul Searching (Career Move)

We all go through that phase where we wonder what we want to do with our lives.

For, almost 10 years, I knew I wanted to be a cosmetologist. Well, until I found out that it generally costs $14k to attend a decent school. Realizing that I wasn't going to get there as fast as I dreamt, I thought about psychology, until many people warned me that it doesn't pay much and all you can really do around here is be a case worker. Then, revisiting the idea of being a nutritionist came to mind recently, until the college I was looking into required extensive core classes…for nutrition? Yeah, I'm broke and have heard horror stories of pulling out a student loan, no thanks. I felt lost and helpless…But, what does a little goth girl do? I work best with one-on-one kind of stuff and I love making people feel better, I don't want to be a doctor, I need something!

I found a school near me that offers massage therapy classes, it'd be an associates degree (9 month course) and they accept all kinds of grants. I have an appointment with an advisor tomorrow, I am psyched!!! If this works out, I'll be the happiest little goth girl on the planet!!!

I am making this post, just in case there is someone reading right now that feels down in the dumps. So, here's to you:

I've hated my life for over a year now, NO EMO, and all I wanted to do is be someone. I want my own life, space, my own anything! I currently lack the ability to have my own space, my own life, my own anything. The computer I am typing on right now is shared by many people, my grandmother (Alzheimer's sufferer) literally disables me in every sense of life. I have zero friends, no job, no room. It sucks shitty monkey balls! But…there is always something better. If you've ever seen the muppets: treasure island, YOU KNOW!

There's gotta be something better!!!

Now that I have annoyed you with my whiney ranty cry-baby post, heres an old screenshot of me when I was like, 15 making makeup videos on youtube…

Sooo many people said I looked like Wednesday from the Addam's Family! lol

I will be setting up my office this week so I can make my super awesome GOTH DIY videos!! yaaay!