Leaving New Mexico does not break my heart in the slightest, but it does put a damper on things for my other half. Leaving his birth place, his childhood friend, his mother... to go with a family he's only known for a year and a half is something outside and beyond any comfort zone imaginable. It's a huge step in anyone's life and it's something that I've already done...except for the fact that I had my family with me the whole way!
Will he stay or will he go?
It really comes down to the act of leaving. I'd understand if he left me, I would not be happy about it, but I'd understand completely.
If he goes with me, I worry about resentment and disappointment. I worry that every small thing that goes wrong, he'll make me feel like its my fault or I'm to blame.
I hope that he goes with me and we live happily ever after! But that's a stretch, even by my standards, haha.
Life will change forever for all of us. Things are going to be very different...
I think we will all be more comfortable in our own home, in our own element, in our control.
No longer under anyone's thumb.
It's gonna be difficult for a while, but I think we can deal.
We got this!
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