I Didn't Give Up, I Just Paused

I'm not sure if anyone remembers my horrid attempt at promoting my patreon page, so I will refresh your memory:

I was so excited about patreon, mainly because I thought that it'd work, even for someone like me...
The video I made for it was fucking terrible!! It took me about 4 months to realize just how bad it actually was. I had to step back and re-evaluate the whole thing, which of course led me to putting it on hold. I don't have enough to offer right now and my lovely people that I love so much are kind of lonely considering the fact that they are low in numbers. I haven't created enough of a community to ever ask anyone of anything. I'm inconsistent and self conscious, those things are not good for any type of creation.

Once again, I am pulling my head out of my ass and getting real. That is a difficult task for me, but I know what my heart tells me, I need a community.
This poor white girl doesn't have much to offer, but I am going to try...

I'm stuck in a whirlwind of self judgment and self loathing...its not depression, its media.
Its something I've struggled with since I was wee girl. Its a disease that needs a cure, a disorder that needs redirecting, I am left to deal with it in private, in silence. 

Here I am, wanting to change, wanting to kill that pest that tells me things that I do not need to hear. That voice that brings me down. Its the link to every bad moment in my past, every time I questioned my decisions and broke promises. Its a reminder of who I can be, the bad in me. I don't want to hear it anymore!
I'm moving on from it.

UNICORNS! See? Already feeling better ;)

So, Tuesday...

I looked like this

Then posted this

And got this, yesterday!!!

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This, made my year. Thank you, Morgue! 

Now, The G-man said "Ok? Its a snake"

I said "Thats the point! There are no words!"

He just stared at me, blankly....

lol

It was great.

If anyone is interested in helping out a fellow goth, an amazing woman, Leah Mouse! Here are some links:

Youtube..https://www.youtube.com/user/LeahMouse
Etsy<3 https://www.youtube.com/user/LeahMouse
PATREON--- http://www.patreon.com/LeahMouse 


As always, let me know in the comments what you think!
I love yous!!!!