This Is For YOU

I lost a lot of motivation over the past few months. Its so difficult living in a small house with so many people, I can't even think most of the time. Everyone always has something going on, big or small, and it never allows me enough work room to do the things I love. I've talked before about this, the same whiney ass excuses why I don't post more videos or update my store. I hate it, its not good for myself or anyone else who has any interest in what I do.
My biggest complaint, currently, is the fact that everything is this ugly façade, a hideous evil that has no substance. Its greed, always about the money and advertising.
One of my favorite youtubers incorporated an advertisement in her personal vlog the other day. I instantly got sick to my stomach! This is also why I love LeahMouse. She never wastes her time or anyone else's with a bunch of bullshit advertising. If you have to give up all your creativity in order to make a quick buck, that brings up the question "What kind of world are we living in?!"
I would gladly inform my peoples of things that I like, whether its the brand or a good deal, but I wouldn't go out of my way to throw my talent in the garbage to push anyone to buy anything for any reason!! (insert link to book in which I am affiliated) lol.
Why I am a low class American:
I was not born into money, but I was raised around hard work. I watched my grandpa deconstruct and rebuild things beyond today's technology. My mom has always been a DIY woman. When I was little, I wanted to be a witch for halloween and she spent over 2 weeks working on my custom made costume while she worked third shift as a leader of a production line. Hard work doesn't always make you rich. But it does create a good image, good morals. I was a happy child, I had no idea nor care in the world what anyone thought of me or my family, because we were awesome and could do anything!
My generation has the misfortune of being dubbed "The lazy generation". I cannot deny that sour fact, people my age are lazy, especially compared to our parents and grandparents. But, why are we considered lazy? Dropping out of school, slew of dead end jobs. Why? How much of it is actually our fault? The best we can do is fight against that bad rep. It does not matter how much you think you messed up already, just keep swimming. Look ahead, find a point and charge forward. Easier said than done, but really.
Now, buy me a castle where I can spend my days crafting away. Haha! Back to the main subject!
Is it work when you are taking offers from brands so you might clutter your next video with nonsense, stealing the money and intelligence from the youngens? Is it HARD work staying home waiting for packages of cosmetics and styling tools that cost more than your car? Is it hard work to sit in front of a camera and smile while lying to these poor kids that can't afford the shit your are cramming down their throats? Hmm, I can't say that I really know the answer to that, just my opinion…you suck and you make our generation look so much worse, creating unrealistic "results" and unattainable appearances, keeping the majority dumbed down until they crumble under the stress of your lies. Its bullshit and I hope you wake up one day and realize how hideous you've become.
This generation deserves more than the name we've been given, we need someone with a voice, with ideas, with drive to lead us in a better direction. But, alas, its all about clothes, makeup, rap and expensive cars, fast food and senseless television. Its so sad.

Right now, I am so irritated that I lost my appetite. I keep making phone calls to try to get help for someone and the wrong people keep asking me "Why?! For what?! Tell me!" No! its none of your business, and when I finally tell them, they can't help me! These stupid, ignorant fools always slowing us down! Where you at upstairs?! Don't get all nosey for personal reasons! UGH! If another asshole asks me "Why?!" again, I'm simply going to say "Planning a funeral". It could work for any situation. "I need a doctor that accepts alz patients." Them, "Why?!" Me, "Planning a funeral". Confusion!!! lol. I need a marijuana card. Them, "Why?!" Cuz I am planning a funeral. DONE! Oh, dear lord if they ask me another question after that, I am going to hang up and turn off my phone. Fuck off. I hate these people with a fiery burning ASSHOLE!