All the things that caused me to feel bad, ran through my mind like a pack of wild animals. I was homesick, I am still in shock over getting my driver's license, seeing Get Scared with my own eyes. It was very stressful on my psyche. I want to love every moment of these things, but it is so hard to believe they even happened! I am a nervous nelly, I am a worry wart, I self-sabatage on a daily basis, I am unhealthy for me, lol.
Every time I get butterflies, this little voice tells me "What if you wake up and you are still a useless, nervous wreck? What if you have only been dreaming that you've changed? What if none of this is real?"
It's not that its a bad thing, its just discouraging.
Everything has been so surreal, life changing. All I that needed to be done on my part was me JUST DOING IT. How was that so difficult before?
I'm proud of myself, I deserve everything that i've done for myself, and I'm thankful for the opportunity to do so. Just feel that! Feel the happiness and enjoy. Life is too short to doubt your own accomplishments, no matter how big or small!
Say this with me:
"I'm proud of who I am, who I was, and who I will become. I love myself. I am blessed with the life that I have been given. I will hold my head high, I will carry on even if I want to give up! This is my life, and no matter how rough my life gets, it will always be MINE."
Ah, ok.
So far, today has been OK. I am glad, too!
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