I am Goth

Hey, welcome back to another unpopular opinion topic! It may not be "unpopular", the majority may even agree with my opinions on this. I'd like to start by stating that I have very few references, I am a forced recluse, I do not leave my tiny house much. I guess this will be focused around the opinions of an uncultured lover of a subculture.

Goth. The darkness, the love of all things tragic, the underground music, the quiet rebels. To me, Goth has been the only light in my darkness, oh the irony. Goth was my saving grace. I had no idea who I was supposed to be, how to look, or even act. I went with it, I wore my mom's darkest clothes to feel comfortable. We would walk by Hot Topic and my hairs would stand on end; that place excited every inch of my being. It was so dark, it smelled like woodland perfume, and the music made elderly women cringe in disgust. My arm would hook around my mother and I'd drag her toward the dark red pit of rebel clothing. The Tripp pants, oh my love! The massive elephant pants with chains and colored stitching, ranging between $60-$110 a pair. The walls were lined with band T's and corsets, I'd melt at the mere sight of it all. Of course, Hot Topic is not like this anymore, unfortunately. But that’s how it made me feel back then.

 My creepy ass would skip school to sit in graveyards, I'd spend my afternoons practicing my thick eyeliner and dying my roots black. "You can't go out 'cause your roots are showing. Dye 'em black". I was in love with myself, and I loved the dark.

According to some, this does not earn me my Goth card *LOL*. To the elite, the darkest of darks, the almighty "Real Goths" this simply makes me an "Admirer". As a grown ass woman, I find this hilarious! I guess some goths take themselves way too seriously.

I do understand that some things must be kept sacred, must be respected. This is not a cult, nor a religion, but a way of life. I get it. Might I add, we label things, as humans, we categorize to best understand our environment. I best identify as Goth. If I had  to explain it in more detail, it'd fall apart: Gothy-witchy-lazy-minimal makeup-flip flops sometimes-messy-comfy-anti chic. If there was a category other than Goth that I more related to, I would.

In all reality, its ok. It is all ok. I'm glad that any of us are talking to/about each other at all! I remember when it was almost a secret to be "Goth". I was afraid of the reaction if I used the word. Same with being a witch, yeah…a Goth Witch. I got so much shit when I was a teen, but now, not so much! Now its like I've earned my adult card, I just need  to maintain any additional labels.

I know I talk a lot about this subject, but it means a lot to me. I will continue to identify as Goth and Witch. I will always practice my rights and privileges as a free, American woman. Thank you for reading, I hope you come back for my next post!