About That Tutorial

I filmed the mini hat tutorial….but I hated it!
It seemed like I rushed through it, the material looked awful…I would never wear it!

But, things are starting to straighten out, so hopefully I will have enough money to put more effort towards my videos and crafts and things!

I am currently playing with shrinky dinks, and listening to "Punk goes Christmas" on spotify. I don't know what I'm doing with my life right now, I'm kind of lost today. Its almost like I don't know how to be me, its weird.

In other news, I'd love to put cool things up in my store, so get this:

      + I have a T-shirt press (my uncle shares with me)

      - I don't have the money for the paper or ink

+ I own 2 different sewing machines

-Not enough material to sew anything

+ A bunch of acrylic paint

- Nothing to paint

See the issue? HAHA its so ridiculous. 

You know what I've been doing for the past few weeks? Trying to keep the house clean, a fucking impossible task!! Every time I turn around, its messed up somehow…I'll spare you the details.

So, I am sitting with grams, I don't know how to entertain her because she hates me right now, any noise I make she yells at me LOL. Its funny, but I really don't wanna keep her pissed off all day. Its after 1pm and my man is still in bed…MY LIFE RIGHT NOW, THO!!!!!!! 

IF ONLY I HAD FRIENDS!!!!!!! 

I HAVE NO FRIENDS….even if I did, I'm sure none of them would be patient with my obligations and what not. 

Just wanted to let ya know whats up, and say HI!!

 Sorry I suck.

How To Be A Person (Life Advice)

 My man has inspired me more than any man I've ever met. He breaks his back bending backwards for everyone, he's a tough ass with the kindest tortured soul.  He has helped me in so many ways, i can actually function now! Today, he works, maybe just long enough until i go to work. We miss eachother even when we've spent 24 hours straight, just he and I. I have a strange feeling that we are so much alike, the world may hit us twice as hard with twice the force to knock us down or tear us apart. Wasted efforts if you ask me. No outside force can touch this!! Lol only 2 in this pod, thats all that matters. 

die Worte, die wir sprechen, wird die Luft, die wir atmen, füllen. The words we speak fill the air that we breathe.

In time, we all develop an emotional attachment to who we used to be. Its gazing into the past and attempting to recreate a long lost moment, simply scarred in our memory. Living in non-existing moments, that are no longer present, can quickly swallow a person into their own oblivion. Worse than denial, worse than depression, its self-separation and its dangerous. Lets focus on the people around us and the moments that are happening now.

If you can't be proud of who you are right now, CHANGE!

If you are unhappy with the people around you, if your feng shui is off, if there is darkness that eats at you…FIX IT!

There are some things that may never change, like the inability to admit that you are wrong. 

The worst way to go about a situation is anger. I will tell you why:

When you are angry, you tend to let care go to the wind. Harsh words, snide comments and rude glares are always first. Talking to someone whilst you are angry creates a whirlwind of problems…

If those problems can be solved, great! But, fair warning, that upset individual will never forget your angry words.

The absolute worst, after the first worst: Letting someone go to sleep whilst angry with YOU! Life 101, people! 

My momma always said "Never go to bed angry, or let someone go to bed angry at you."

Not only have you ruined someone else's day, night, and day again…But you have ruined your own.

Speaking of your feelings to someone that may be causing you some discomfort.

ESTABLISH A RELATIONSHIP, FIRST!

Otherwise, you come off as a bully. 

If its too difficult to let shit go, you are going to drive yourself into INSANITY! Let it go, be coooool. Dwelling on something may be signs, big, flashing signs that you have an internal issue. 

Do NOT take your internal issues out on the people around you, you will end up all alone. Identify your problems and find out if there is something YOU can do for YOU.