The Beauty Of Change

Let's get really personal right now. The G-man and I have been together for 4 1/2 years, 4 of those years I have discouraged him from pursuing his dream of becoming a U.S. soldier. When we met, still in the friend stage, I discouraged him from joining. Once we started dating, he would bring up joining the military and I would shake my head and say "Nope, I am not a fucking army wife. I will never be an army wife. No."
Welp, it took 4 years, a lot of hardship, a ton of maturing. We have been back and forth to the recruiters office for the past few weeks...
I encouraged him to do so. I told him "You need to just go for what you want most. I am not going to get in your way, in fact I want to help."
So, here we are, 3 days after he took the ASVAB, and scored very well. We have started and maintained a work out regimen, we even bought matching fitbits! We are doing this, for real.

I have cried, watched him sleep with tears in my eyes, I've gotten angry about it without showing it. I went through a lot of emotions and perception shifts in the past couple of months. Thankfully, it has calmed to a low roar. I feel like I can breathe again. I am scared.
But, the change has been so fucking refreshing! I have not seen this man so driven, he pops up in the morning with purpose. Usually, he would sleep for 12+ hours and play video games all through the night, avoiding all social interactions and responsibility. He is a new man already and I am so proud!

Now, what the hell am I going to do while he is in basic for many months? I have no idea.
I am still trying to wrap my mind around the fact that we are getting married (courthouse only), that I am going to be without him for so long. My family is a huge support, always! If we didn't have them, we would be absolutely miserable. I don't know what else to say, or how to say more, so that's all for now.

Thank you for reading.