If You Have It, What Do You Do With It?

The one thing that I want more than anything requires many things that I don't have.

I found what I've been looking for, Holistic Nutritionist! Yes! I finally found it! Its exactly what I need, career and life wise. I couldn't be more excited…

Until I realized that I not only need $4,000 for the certification, I also need a laptop (that works) because my computer I'm typing on now is a huge dinosaur! Its my lovely babydoll booboo kisses and I love this thing with my whole heart, but I can't spend $4,000 on a certification to be stuck in the livingroom with the chaos and uncertainty if my computer will work with me everyday! Ok, so I need about $6,000+ to ensure success…ouch!

Fine, so, lets say I do this. I get the laptop, purchase the self-paced course and complete it with zero hiccups, I am now a real holistic nutritionist…Now what? What do I do with it once I have it? In my mind, its all butterflies and rainbows, I'm going to go out there and coach someone and help people. But, honestly, I have no clue how to do those things! Even if all the info was provided in the course, I am not positive that I'll be successful in the real world. Well, good thing I got that new laptop, huh!

This is me fearing the lion outside. This is why I don't have my license. I'm silly, letting all these stupid fears get in my way…like this!!! "Well, even if I get the laptop and the certification, how the hell am I going to pay off that debt I now owe?!! I can't do this! Put myself in debt right from the start! What was I thinking, I can't do this."

STOP! Just stop, right now! I'm so sick of this. I'm sick of letting everything get to me. I honestly don't give a damn if I get the certification and do nothing with it, its still an accomplishment! I need more of those!